I recently came home from a missions trip in Costa Rica. The whole experience was life changing; never before have I learned so much, felt so close to God, and gotten so close to such a wonderful group of people in such a short time before. However, now that I'm back, everything seems so much more... mundane.
Ever since I arrived back in the US, I've been asking myself "what am I doing here?" "Is this really what I'm supposed to be doing?" And most frequently, "what now?"
You see, as you may or may not know, I am going to be graduating high school this year, which means I have to make some decisions. Decisions like "what do I want to do with the rest of my life?" And more importantly, "what does God want me to do with the rest of my life?" Now putting aside the ridiculous notion that you are expected to make these major life decisions at the ripe old age of 18, I began to realize that everything I had been trying to organize for my future seemed... unimportant. Uninspired. Only of me. I don't want that.
I realize now that I shouldn't be trying to plan my own future. God has already done that. I just need to be listening. Sure my everyday small town life might seem a bit (OK a lot) boring, but if I'm here, God has to have a reason for it. I just need to be praying, reading, and listening intently to find what that reason is. I recently found a quote and a bible verse pertaining to this exact topic, so I'm gonna leave you with this: " There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind." -C.S Lewis. Considering what I just left behind, I'm pretty excited!
"'For I know what plans I have in mind for you' says Adonai, 'plans for well being, not for bad things; so that you can have hope and a future.'" Jeremiah 29:11